Really? Seriously? Are you kidding me?

Shell shock. Waiting for the other shoe to drop. Concern. Anxiety. Angry. Hurt. Lost. Alone.

What happened? The company downsized. And let go of some good people, while keeping the ones who cause the need to downsize. One of the victims slept in his chair the night before because his wife was upset that he had put the company first and gotten up in the middle of the night to go lock up the building. That's gratitude for you.

I wish I would tell the company they were successful. They were successful in demonstrating that honesty, integrity, ethics, experience are not important. They were successful in showing that they value shady dealings, false numbers, blackmail, and the opposite of what most of the world would consider right and upstanding.

Everything we were fighting for is gone. Where do you go from here? What do you do when you land in the exact position you worked so hard to avoid?

I guess you take a moment to breathe, then get up and put one foot in front of the other until you can find a better path.

But still, wow. Really?

Now What?

Am I really ready? Am I certain I'm ready to accept the responsibility that comes with wisdom?

I don't have the answer to that question yet. Nor I have I decided to jump in and deal with what comes my way. No, I am simply sitting back and letting the ocean of life toss me about and I still won't find the pearls I need, for they are deeper.

It should mean something that I know this about myself, but it doesn't. I know a lot of things that don't do me any good. Many times they say "Knowledge is power." That is only true is you USE that power.

James 2:19-20
Thou believest that there is one God; thou doest well/ the devils also believe and tremble. But wilt thou know, O vain man, that faith without works is dead?

The revelation of the truth that there is only One God is not enough. We must use that understanding and show our faith by our works.

Now for the tough part.

I KNOW that. In my heart I know there is ONLY ONE GOD and His name is Jesus. I know we are told to "Repent and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of your sins and you shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost"- Acts 2:38
I also know that God has called His church to be separate from the world, to not be fooled by the traditions of men, and to not be lovers of pleasure more than lovers of him. So that raises the question " what isnit okay for a born again, one God, baptized in Jesus' name, Holy Spirit Christian to do?" Especially since the Bible tells us in 1 Corinthians 10:23 that "All things are lawful for me, but all things are not expedient: all things are lawful for me but all things edifying not"

The conviction is between me and God, but He gave us apostles, prophets. Evangelists, pastors, and teachers for the work of the ministry to perfect and edify- Ephesians 4:11-12.

So where does that leave me? On the other hand what sacrifice is too great for the One who created me and died for me? What shouldn't I give up just to be closer to Him?

I need to make a move. Any move is better than none. Revelation 3:15-16 tells us that God prefer that we be hot or cold, not lukewarm.


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